A year gone by

I made posts between then and now, but saw it fit to take them down due to their depressing nature.
This year has been...fast. I am at the point in life where instead of experiencing entire days, I feel time flowing by the week. I hardly know what day it is, and wouldn't without calendars. This week is just this week, and next week will be here in the blink of an eye. I feel like I will soon be measuring my life months at a time. I said today, "I can't believe that April is already here," and it was not very long ago in my mind that I was saying the same of March.
I feel as though I could strech my concept of time back out to a more lengthy experience if I put in the effort. Make days more enriching, more distinguishable one from the next. If every day was different in some way, not just work, eat, sleep, play games, watch tv/movies. Is everything in life routine? If I went back to school, would it not just be a different routine? If I chose a "career"-just another endless pattern of days and nights spent generally the same way?
It is as though my life is rapidly slipping out from underneath me, rushing through my fingers like water. I would like to find a way to give it more substance so that I might hold it a little longer, tighten my grip. But how? There are so many things that I cannot do for lack of funding, or perhaps that I will not do for a fear of not knowing how things will turn out. My husband and I have given ourselves a goal to achieve in the next year. Our lease begins and ends in May. We are resigning for this year, and our goal is to move away next May. We've discussed the northeastern states. New York (probably not the city), Maine, Vermont, Massachusets. A decent town within close reach of big cities and a good place to further our education. I will be going back to school, and he will be very nearly done.
I'll keep you posted